MUSIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I like so many different kinds of music.I grew up listening to only rock and punk rock music.But, now i listen to just about anything. Like for example nright now i am listening to Whataya Want From Me by Adam Lambert. To me he is a great musician. He has an amazing voice. It's very unique. I love it. He has so many good songs. i love them. heres a few:

My college Visit Feb 25th 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So on friday i have my college visit. My sister and my boyfriend and I are going. I honestly don't know what to expect. I know it's college what is there to expect. But, My life is finally on track and i know what I am doing with my life. Im actully nervous a little bit. But, at the same time I am extreamly excited. I am going to college for Criminal Justice to be a CSI. It could be dangerous to be that but thats what interests me. The main reason that i started wanting to do that is because my little cousin Beja got murdered when she was 3 years old by my cousins husbands side of the family. They were just supposed to babysit her while my cousin was at work or on vacation or something. But when Brandy was gone they made Beja eat her food off of the floor with the dogs, They sculded her with boiling hot water, and beat her to death oand i want to put people like that behind bars. Well.....There is more to the story but it's kind of graphic so I am not going to tell it. But, It;s things like that that atracted me to being a CSI. The sad thing is that Brandy's husband's side of the family murdered her because they didnt approve that Brandy was white and her hunsband was black so they had a Malono child.

Almost Time For College!!!!

Well.......It's almost time for college. I am pretty excited about being the first one in my family actully go through college instead of just dropping out.I just applied for my FAFSA Loan. hopefully i get aproved to it. otherwise i gotta go through a bank and they have alot of interest on there. I actully can't wait to go to college, I'd like to have a fresh start to make friends and make my life actully go somewhere. Well after i get my 2 years if kirkwood out of the way im going to the University Of Iowa college for my last 2 years. That will Be one expensive educated. O Boy. I will be totaly overwelmed but it's all worth it. It's a good chance to have a good life. 4 years of college is a lot to do but i have to do it to do what i want to do. I'm not just doing this for me but for my beautiful son and my future children. Im excited for my future. During college i will be living with my parents untill im ready to move out. I would live on campus but thatd be really hard having my son on campus with me and there is no way im moving with out him.

New Medicine

La la la (rich kids),
La la la.

Yo, turn that shit up.

I coulda went to college like rich kids do,
Buy some weed with the money that your mom sent you,
But I don't give a damn bout no higher degree,
Cause you know in rock and roll, I got a PhD, bitch.

(That's right, kids.)

We got all that we need, packed it up in my van,
Put the pedal to the floor, gave the finger to the man.

I'm not a rich kid, maybe that's a good thing,
Ain't got shit, but I got this far.
Keepin it real and loving this feeling,
Doing what I want.

Oh, got no money but it's
Alright, I'm only sunny honey.

(Yeah, that's right, I'm always sunny honey,
Here we go, second verse.)

Well, I'm broke as a drunkie but I have a good tab,
All the ladies think I'm cute cause they like the way I rhyme,
And the high school kids steal my mp3s,
Ain't no other mother(fucker) rock this mic like me.

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/rich-kids-lyrics-new-medicine.html ]


I'm not a rich kid, maybe that's a good thing,
Ain't got shit, but I got this far.
Keepin it real and loving this feeling,
Doing what I want.

Oh, got no money but it's
Alright, I'm only sunny honey.
(I got nothing man, got zero, zilch, nothing)

We got all that we need,
We got all that we need,
We got all that we need, packed it up in the van,
Put the pedal to the floor, gave the finger to the man.

I'm not a rich kid, maybe that's a good thing,
Ain't got shit, but I got this far.
Keepin it real and loving this feeling,
Doing what I want.

Oh, got no money but it's
Alright, I'm only sunny honey.

(I'm always sunny honey,
Ha ha ha (rich kids).
I'm always sunny honey,
(Rich kids).

I love this song!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I got to see it in concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

~ToOtHfAiRy~

Why I Love My Life!

I love my life because I have the most amazing boyfriend. For example for Valentine's Day he is taking me out and giving me a pretty present. Hahahaha hes sitting right beside me watching what I'm typeing. HE NEEDS TO GET HIS BUTT BACK TO WORK! Usually he is very misunderstood by alot of people. that really bothers me. He's not a weirdo. Or annoying. He's just himself and dosen't try to be something that he's not. He's himself all the time and dosen't try to be something that he's not. He might be an odd ball but he's my odd ball. He's everything to me. I'm finally fopr once in my life happy!

~ToOtHfAiRy~

So Far Away!

The feeling that you have when you know that you have lost someone that you really love and that you were really close to is unbarable. Some can't cope the pain that you have when appens. On October 14th 2008 I lost a good friend of mine to suicide. It took me months just to stop crying. I remember sitting up in my room everynight wounderin why he would do this. Why would he put his family and friends through this. Hearts ached. People cried. I don't think he knows how many people really did care about him and how many people really did care about him and how much he effected this whole town. A lot of people went to his funeral. So many of us cried for him to come back but he never did. We prayed that it was just a dream. That we would wake up and go to school and he'd be in our class or at his locker. But, when we went school he wasn't there. He was no where to be found. I still have not gone to see his grave after about 2 and and a half years. I just can't it's too painful. Sometimes i wish he would have just talked to me and told me what was wrong and would have asked me for help. When I get on Facebook and look through all my messages, If i go back far enough i find messages from him. He was so funny. He truly was a great friend. When i went to the Avenged Sevenfold concert, They did a tribute for there drummer James "The Rev" Sullivan. I see that they are in a lot of pain and see that The Rev was more than just a drummer or a band member to them. He was a brother and a best friend  After The Rev died they wrote a song for him. It's Called "So Far Away" It is a song that could be for anyone that has lost someone that they really do love and are close to. Here is the song. Listen to it.

~ToOtHfAiRy~

Pressure! Paramore!

Pressure LyricsArtist(Band):Paramore

Tell me where our time went
And if it was time well spent
Just don't let me fall asleep
Feeling empty again

Cause I fear I might break
and I fear I can't take it
Tonight I'll lie awake feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Now that I'm losing hope
And there's nothing else to show
For all of the days that we spent
Carried away from home

Somethings I'll never know
And I had to let them go
I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

Without you

Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
Some things I'll never know
And I had to let them go
well I'm sitting all alone feeling empty

I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
We're better off without you

i can Feel the pressure
It's getting closer now
You're better off without me............................
~ToOtHfAiRy~